I was young at the time I met this guy, he was few years older than me. We had been together for about 1 year on and off coz simply he was not serious of anything.. u can say he is a quite player who does what ever he wants with out me knowing anything, just like a fool.. yeah he was making fool of me and cheat on me behind my back. I went through hard times with him and a lot of problems too. He didn’t appreciate what ever I went through and keeps hurting me.. you may ask me why I didn’t broke up with him? Well.. from the first time I sow him one of my friends warned me but I didn’t listen coz I loved him so bad that I forgot my self and my family.. bad grades at school, ignoring mom and dad, getting skinny day by day.. I screwed up my life without noticing what I was doing. Everytime I hear shit about him I ask him about it he yells at me saying (why u listen to people? U don’t trust me or what? And stop saying that I cheat on you) I was trying to believe him knowing from my heart that there is another lady out there he is having fun with.. I was patient for so long hoping that he will change one day but he didn’t.. one day I woke up and I looked my self in the mirror .. I said no .. I am not gonna live this life any more .. I knew I was too good for him .i decided to broke up with him .. I ignored him for several days then when he called me I answered telling him its over baby coz the hardest thing in life is watching someone you love, love somebody else. I decided to walk alone until I saw this new guy I didn’t want to go through the same pain again I told him that my heart can’t take it any more I need to live my life alone but he asked me to give him a chance and I did.. I don’t know why but I did.. phone call after phone call , day by day I liked the guy I can say he is really different, special and straight with me.. but now the problem is how can I trust him? I am suffering each day from this problem I want to trust him but I cant .. what can I do coz I don’t wanna lose this guy and at the same time I don’t want to suffer again.. Should I keep him or should I let him go?
When you said Good bye,
All I could do was cry.
You broke my heart back then,
NOW you want back in my life again.
You say this time will be different, it won't be the same,
but my heart is still healing from the last time into my life you came.
Just give me a little while,
and perhaps one day I'll return the smile.
But until then please understand,
my hearts not ready to be torn again.